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salam. my name is muhammad nazirul.
yet, i was known to others by several other names..*sigh*
anyhow, i'm not really into this blogging thingy.
it's a stuff that i do when i don't have anything to do
so, don't expect any updates.;)
oh..one more thing, this BLOG, THIS particular blog, it's ALL ME.
but, i'm not perfect
so, i'm not gonna say "GET THE F*CK OUTTA HERE!!"
n i most welcome your comments and critics.:)
Saturday, July 15, 2006
last week (thursday, 13th of July), i watched 1 LITRE OF TEARS., bak to bak, 11 episodes, (with upcoming biochem exam on Saturday, 15th of July, which i hadn't read anything yet at da time) haha. honestly, this story made me travelling into a sea of emotional feelings and deep thinkings. how i realized that we actually have nothing at all that we can claim as our own. Aya-chan (the primary character) had to suffer Spinocerebellar Atrophy when she's 15-year-old, which unfortunately caused her brain to degenerate by time. i cried when i watched dis japanese series, seriously. (it's not that i'm a sissy, but i think it's normal for human being to cry when he/she feels sad rite?) it's hard when u're a smart student, n u're good at sport n so on, n u begin to lose ur ability to walk, to talk, to eat, u lose ur bf/gf, n to feel dat u're sumwat a burden to everyone around u, n above all that, she was only 15 years old to suffer that cruel disease.
her life made me think, how is someone, who knows he/she will be bedridden in the future, still trying to overcome the disease? n how does someone who is borned with disadvantages (blind, Down syndrome etc), still have those positive views about life? n how about someone, who's borned with everythng, still, he has the gut to say that life sucks?
da story became an emotional journey to me as my brother is special too. my brother had dis disease called hypotyroxine (as i remember it lah..). he became mentally retarded. but he took the PMR; along with me (when he was 19 n i'm 14). he gave his 100% effort to succeed in the PMR. he always read the book, he always ask me questions, but i guess, PMR was just too much 4 him. though he's my brother, i had never been too close with him. i mean, when he watched the television, i'll be sleeping in the room, when he's sleeping, then i'll b watching the tv. we never go out together to shopping mall or go to bowling.. maybe it's becoz me n him are a complete different person.
but last week, my mom forwarded a message from my brother.
"Hp org da amik lek, tp xbmkne org nk bg camtu je, klu nk pkai gak, tggu lps peperiksaan akhir taun..klu kputusan dia ok..org akn bg dia, mak jgn nak desak2 org bg hp kat dia, lain la mcm org nie wlau pun dulu rajin usaha buat latihan dan ulang kaji,tp nk buat mcm ne kn? da gagal. org xsama mcm dia, org insan istimewa,jeena normal. org xnk dia jd mcm org, org nk dia brjy mcm nazirul..!"
he sent this sms to my mom after he took back his handset from my sister, which he gave to her when he bought a new one. i never knew dat he feels proud of me, though we neva been close. it's sad to actually hear my brother speak out those phrases. he knows he's special, but he never give up. he kept studying and studying, believing dat he can change his fate. that spirit of him, really impressed me. i nearly cried when i read dis sms. these special persons, although they have imperfect things, phisically or mentally, they have a spirit that continues to make us live in awe, n lift up aur hope to continue our lives. maybe, that is because they are really SPECIAL.
my bro
aya-channn~~
her life made me think, how is someone, who knows he/she will be bedridden in the future, still trying to overcome the disease? n how does someone who is borned with disadvantages (blind, Down syndrome etc), still have those positive views about life? n how about someone, who's borned with everythng, still, he has the gut to say that life sucks?
da story became an emotional journey to me as my brother is special too. my brother had dis disease called hypotyroxine (as i remember it lah..). he became mentally retarded. but he took the PMR; along with me (when he was 19 n i'm 14). he gave his 100% effort to succeed in the PMR. he always read the book, he always ask me questions, but i guess, PMR was just too much 4 him. though he's my brother, i had never been too close with him. i mean, when he watched the television, i'll be sleeping in the room, when he's sleeping, then i'll b watching the tv. we never go out together to shopping mall or go to bowling.. maybe it's becoz me n him are a complete different person.
but last week, my mom forwarded a message from my brother.
"Hp org da amik lek, tp xbmkne org nk bg camtu je, klu nk pkai gak, tggu lps peperiksaan akhir taun..klu kputusan dia ok..org akn bg dia, mak jgn nak desak2 org bg hp kat dia, lain la mcm org nie wlau pun dulu rajin usaha buat latihan dan ulang kaji,tp nk buat mcm ne kn? da gagal. org xsama mcm dia, org insan istimewa,jeena normal. org xnk dia jd mcm org, org nk dia brjy mcm nazirul..!"
he sent this sms to my mom after he took back his handset from my sister, which he gave to her when he bought a new one. i never knew dat he feels proud of me, though we neva been close. it's sad to actually hear my brother speak out those phrases. he knows he's special, but he never give up. he kept studying and studying, believing dat he can change his fate. that spirit of him, really impressed me. i nearly cried when i read dis sms. these special persons, although they have imperfect things, phisically or mentally, they have a spirit that continues to make us live in awe, n lift up aur hope to continue our lives. maybe, that is because they are really SPECIAL.
my bro
aya-channn~~
"having this disease isn't unlucky, it's juz not convenient.." - 1 litre of tears
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