i met her, at my previous school. i mean, i know her face, her name, but i never spoke to her. well, she got fans. which happen to be my friends. de la dlm 3-4 org yg suka dgn awek sorg ni. i was neva attracted to her though. yes, she is gorgeous, intelligent n etc etc. but i didn't have da chance to know her. until dis program called Dynamic Crazee Kids (kinda English camp), fortunately, i got to be in da same team with her. we both were partners. fasilitators. thankfully i got her coz i wasnt good in english (still am), n she was a debator. in fact, the best debator at MASISUMA (koku utk skolah agama..ni level mcm sluruh msia rr..tepuk..tepuk..). so, i kinda let all da work goes within her hand, while i relax myself, n raging my juniors. haha. even during that 3days period, i talked to her only when i have to, n even after that, we neva get close. jumpa pon wat xtau. dia kata aku smbong. aku kata dia smbong. hahaha.

i can say that, during my senior tym at SAMBEST, i know her only by my frens. they kinda talk a lot bout her. haha. i know when a guy call her at her home, she will definitely say "..dah?" ( mcm mnghalau ye sbnanya. haha.) i know she is damn smart. i know she got this style of walk that people refers as "mcm langsuir jln". (ala.. gaya2 trapung mcm xjejak lntai..:p) n of coz, i know she's got many of my frens as her fans, who had been trying to get her, (not in the direct way, kira mcm bg hint yg obvious gitula) n neva got replied with positive response (even today, when i asked her, she admit not to see those hints..*sigh*).

conclusion:
she is attractive (gorgeous+smart)
pnuh dgn misteri ( gaya jln beliau)
n xtertarik dgn laki ( as is in all the negative responses ).

that was how i view her. until dis interview by telekom, i managed, accidentally, to get her mobile's number (ehsan dari zaidani). at first, i thought of juz keeping her num in my phone book. but, the intrview turned out to be realy boring that i decided to sms her. walaupon tatot sbnarnya nati dpt respon mcm "dah?" gak, ku teruskan jua. n surprisingly, xdela smbong pon dia nih. ok sajor. n after da interview ended, we still keep in touch. maybe driven by the boringness at my house during those holiday period, n she was at ganu (her parent's home), which is also buhsan like hell (dia yg kata..), sumtym, we found ourselves spending 200 SMSs every day. haha. nasib baek 1sen 1msj. kalo x.. adeh..

n getting to know her, she is definitely not what i thought she was, except on the attractive part, she's definitely not a "wanita pnuh misteri" nor "xtertarik dgn laki". haha. instead, she is really a matured person ( even akk2 dia kata---> adik akk ni mtng sgt bnding dgn usia), kind enuf n etc etc. can't describe (byk nao.:p). n after what..? 2 weeks (or less)? i sumhow get the braveness to ask her to be my gf. wah.. how bold ayte? kwn2 yg dah brtaun mncuba pon xdpt, ni br knl sminggu dua nk trus couple ka?? aiyo.. n my proposal was kinda like dis (in brief) :

"aku suka ko. aku nak ko jadik awek aku. aku bg masa sbulan utk pk. kalo ko tolak, i'll definitely disappear from ur lyf."

yeah..i know. rough. mengugut plak tu.*sigh* at that tym, i thought "kompem kena rejek in a minute ni.." n surprisingly, she replied..

" a month? we'll c at the end of a month."

n i was.."fuuuuhhh..seb bekk.." sambil lap2 peluh. (efek je 2..) but, my thoughts were still determine dat she will reject me anyhow. according to my logical sense, a not handsome guy, not as smart as her, n with my rough proposal n ugutan2 sgala, she must be out of her mind if she accept me. tp pastu, kitorg wat bese je. borak2 gitu jua. still 200 SMSs per day. haha. but the thing called "nervous" realy got my spine. tatotnyeerrrrr.. asal aku bg sbulan? len kali bg 2wiks suda la. adoi.. n God hear my prayer. hehe. 2wiks after the 'evaluation period' , we both get our offer to study in m3x. i decided not to go. but she wanted to go to PASUM. so, to make things easier for her, i asked her to juz give da answer on the day b4 she get into PASUM. nati kang nk stadi lg, nk pk psl aku lg, kn susah kn..? (pdhl alsn je tu nk kurgkn sbuln jd 2wiks..wakaka).

n on at that day, i asked her bout her decision. n she said..

" mlm nati leh? bz sket la skrg.."

"sure."

at that point, i was.."kena reject gak aku akhernya.." but, still, i waited till da nyt came. xkan nak men disappear2 gitu je kn? kn? around 1.30 a.m, she finally text me (in brief).

"mm.. aku accpt la. nite. ngantuk. sok nk bgn awal. akum."

u should c my face at that tym. my heart was like "camtu je ke?? pny lme ku tggu, simple gitu je ayt ko??". haha. n yes, a year ago, she became my girl. 30 May 2005.